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progrockman · Joined: 06 May 2012 Posts: 4

I am a Virgo and the Lady is a Taurus. We met 4 1/2 to 5 years ago when I was living on my own following a marriage break up. At the time I had no intention of returning to my wife. My relationship with this lady flourished but unfortunately, because I got a guilty concience about my wife, I decided to go back home after 18 months. Linda and I had been seeing each other for maybe 6 months at this point. I can tell you now that she was very upset when I gave her the news. She cried and it made me feel really bad. Neverthless I still went back home.

After a week or two at home I contacted this lady again and we started seeing each other within an affair sittuation. It was good to be back in her arms again. I missed her. A few months later I left my wife again and moved in with this lady. This lasted 3 months as I once again felt very guilty about my wife. I moved back home. All this time my wife thought i'd moved in with a friend of mine so she had no idea about this lady at all.

A few months past again and we still saw a lot of each other. We went on holiday even. Anyway I moved back in with this lady. My God....She had me back again. By this time we had fallen in love with each other. Again after 4 months, I had those horrible feelings of guilt and just had to let her down again and move back home.

By this time the lady is really hurt and angry with me and rightly so.

A year later, and we are still seeing each other at weekends etc... She decides that it's time to move house. I help her move to her brand new town house that's twice as big as her last one. Working away on stuff on the house and doing odd jobs for her etc.

She said that it would be a good idea for us to try again so I agreed and moved in yet again into the new house. I lasted 11 months this time. Nearly but not quite!!! Same old reason. GUILT!!!!!

I hate that word. This happened last October so i've been home again since then. I went over to see her last week-end and the bombshell hit me. SHE WANTS TO END THE RELATIONSHIP. Not surprising really the way I have treated her and took her for granted. However, this must have given me the biggest kick up the backside I have ever had. I still love her and would do anything to move back with her. This time for good. I don't love my wife. Havn't for years and there's no love lost between us either. Infact my wife has suggested (as in the end I told her about this lady) that I move in with her anyway! But now I have really done it and busted things up big time.

Please tell me how I can get my lovely lady back. I feel terrible. Lost. My life has no meaning anymore. Tall order I know but this time I know I would stay. From the bottom of my heart. She says she dousn't trust me anymore. There just must be a way I can convince her that I am trusworthy..

SOMEONE......PLEASE HELP ME!!!

Sabrinmg · Joined: 29 Jan 2012 Posts: 192 Location: Over the rainbow

mysticalwonders isn't a therapy group, it's more along the lines of a personal development group. i can understand your angst and appreciate your belief that there must be some magickal cure for your situation. magick is a lot of things to many different people, but the magick is that you change your approach. this is what Dion Fortune meant when she defined magick as a change in conmsciousness.

"if you keep doing what you've always done, you'll keep getting what you've always got". "a problem cannot be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it". they're just two quotes about this.

first, get absolutely clear on what YOU want - it seems that you've done that.

next, get rid of the guilt, it's destructive. it's due mainly from you trying to live up to what other people want, their expectations. do what you do to keep yourself happy, not others. you can call this by a number of names, the word assertive is one of them.

as to how to approach your ladyfriend, tactful and thoughtful honesty always works well.

these are just some suggestions and if she kicks you in the proverbials, i had nothing to do with it Razz

Speak to a counsellor if necessary. Israel Regardie's book entitled The Middle Pillar is a good resource to explain the correlation between Magick and Psychology, although it is a little dated.

Have fun Smile

progrockman · Joined: 06 May 2012 Posts: 4

Thank you Sabrinmg

I always new what to do. Scared stiff of being homeless though. But I do appreciate the importance of being assertive and possitive. I will do what I can. Once again thanks.

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