VerdantGeist
Joined: 27 Nov 2007
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 Posted: Tue Nov 27, 2007 9:03 pm Post subject: modern taoist |
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so i came to this site today following a link about useing brainwaves to reach deep into meditation on myspace. im currious because i have an experience in what a hindu friend of mine call 'trancendence' in buddhism and taoism it would probably be refered to as 'nothingness'.
for the sake of both being open and seeing if anyone could perhaps offer their insite on this experience of mine im going to put it out in short here.
this happend almost 2 years ago. i had just become very close with my hindu friend mentioned above. he had taught me about kundalini yoga, given me a chakra reading, and had me do a run through with the 5 or 6 limbs of yoga. he had determined that i had a very powerful crown chakra and root chakra, durring his run through with the limbs of yoga i had a very short, paniced experience with kundalini while doing a pranayama (breath control) excersize (basicly i while holding my breath i felt an immence heat ride up the rightside of my back, like a vein made of fire was being created. i wish i would have let it keep going but i paniced and cut the meditation, my friend and my girlfriend who were both in the room said they could feel it).
okay okay getting off track here - i'll just go straight to the experience in question.
me and my girlfriend had just had above normal amounts of sex the night before. i woke up laying in bed. everything was normal except i realized there was nothing i really needed to do for the day. so i decided to see what would happen if i went as far into meditation as i possibly could. i started with abdominal breathing. and chanting the following mantras an immagining that each on had an associated chakra and buddha progressing from the root to crown chakra, the mantras were:
rin pyo tou sha kai jin retsu zai zen (kuji-in just to begin)
nam myoho renge kyo
namu amida butsu
on basara yakisha un
on basara da to ban
on basara aratanou on taraku sowaka
on ah hum
om mani padme hum
om gam ganapataye namaha
om nama shiva ya
i probably spent about 2 or 3 hours chanting
something changed when i got to the non-japanese mantras (the end at the last 'on basara...') i felt the waves of white and blue. at first there was no blue really or rather i didnt see it as blue. but as i progessed twards the last mantra i was less and less in touch with reality, blue became all that reality was. then came the freggin' white waves - they made it all happen!
while i was chanting 'om nama shiva ya' i immagined that shiva was seated on a chakra above my head, by this tim there was barely any blue (reality) to be aware of. just powerfull white waves.
eventualy i felt as if my consciousness which normally is somewhere in my head was moving up above my head... then the weird shit started. i felt my entire being being sucked out of my body, the same exact sensation as being picked up or being pulled somewhere. i have the destinc sensation of traveling, even though it was very slow... then it sped up... then i i was flying faster and faster, faster than i have ever gone in a car or on a roller coaster. it was like i was being pulled to somewhere like on the opposite side of the world in about 3 seconds. thats how fast it was then the direction changed, i started going up, like up. and at this time all i was aware of was something like clouds flying by, or like millions of spirits going by. if youve ever seen the movie contact its like whn the main character went in the machince and got teleported. or when cloud flys off to fight sephiroth for the last time in final fantasy seven. it was that sort of flying at high speed through some sort of tube.
anyways - so i was moving upwards now. and at this point i was afraid that if demons did exist they'd get me now, an that maybe i should stop, but i decided not to - it seemed like there was too much at stake. i remember distinctly wondering if i was going to heaven, i think that was my last thought.
then it happend. have you ever swam down to the bottom of a 30 ft pool and then in a panic swam back to the top because you dont have any air and you're tired from reaching the bottom. THAT MOMENT WHEN YOU FINNALY REACH THE SURFACE AND YOU CAN BREATH AGAIN? yeah, it was like that times infinity.
i had hit some sort of place. i didnt know where, i couldnt wonder where, i looked around, which was the strangest thing i've ever done, because i realized i was aware in 360 degrees, why? because i had no body and thus no eyes to be constrained to. i realized this after trying to look down at my body - there was no body, there wasnt a down either. its really hard to explain this place - only the taoist an buddhist explanation of pure 'nothingness' comes close... but this place it was just a strange grey and it went on forever...
then my faggot ass roommate busted into to my room and said "HEY VENTON GET UP MY MOM WANTS TO GO DO A GARBAGE RUN!"
I WAS RIPPED OUT OF THE EXPERIENCE -- IMMEDIATELY
the only thing that was weird was how i felt for the rest of the day... it was like the meditation didnt stop... i was in this state of both hyper awareness and sleep. like a lucid dream. everything felt fake.
i tried getting back to that place for almost a year... with no luck. so i stopped and worked on other things like taoist alchemy and kundalini yoga. i found that varrious things get me back to the white waves, but i always get too excited and think "this is it! i've got the waves, its finnaly going to happen again!!!" and thus pull myself out of the focus needed.
so right now im looking for meditative aids, i've contemplated using some sort of chemicals, especialy after reading the experiences of Ram Das in his book "be here now" with LSD. but that just seems too risky, so im investigating sound induced meditation. i had a friend in gig harbor WA, who has specialy made gongs that vibrate in weird ways that put you deeper into meditation... but i never got to try them... so lame i moved to bellingham WA, which is by the border of canada.
so if anyone knows of any free sites that give out these mp3s please respond here or pm me.
other than that it should be very intresting to read about the experiences and intrests of others here on this board. im looking forward to it. |
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