neotechmatrix2002
Joined: 01 Feb 2005
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 Posted: Fri Feb 09, 2007 12:12 pm Post subject: mind game closure
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Over this last year I've found out that my ex boyfriend played this huge mind game with me... I have no real clue on how it began and who was all involved. I'm not sure if I was hypnotized or drugged or a combination of both... maybe its just paranoia... but I highly doubt it. I'm pretty sure you can't be hypnotized without consent so that kinda leaves that one out... and what I do remember... is only bits a pieces of what happened while I was in some altered state... I can't explain any of this... this all started happening around the time of my awakening about 3 years ago sometime around Sept. 20ish 2002-03??...After my spirit awakening I kept having these headaches.. and through other people (psychic) the only info I have to go on about this mind game and everything else that has happened is by trusting other friends that are psychics that I've met along the way. I still have questions on whether or not my ex did this or not... but I believe so... most of the informations I have or know is from other psychic friends that have helped me get this far.
I know through hypnosis you can be told (suggested) to forget what happens... and whenever I can recall these events in my head I only see a picture with whatever bad emotion I was experiencing at the time. I know I keep mentioning hypnosis, but to my conscious knowledge I never consented or told my ex or anyone to hypnotize me.. I just know I had to be in some altered state for these things to have happened to me... how, when, where, why I haven't a clue but I would like to know.
I also used to have this friend that came with me to texas and he's actually the person that helped me start getting out of this huge mind game I was in... but recently I've been getting headaches (what causes these headaches? Do you know?) again and I was kind of wondering who is really all involved with this. My friend that I live with who is psychic also thinks that he could also be involved in giving me these headaches and apart of this mind game. His name is Nick (who I came to texas with)... though since we don't talk anymore.. the only connection we have is psychically. His mind was the first and so far the only mind that I accidently saw, and read like a book. (another story but it was amazing to see what I saw) I don't believe in accidents so I guess I should say spirit showed me his mind...
Since this has one big mind game it has left me with wondering if the person I'm living with... the person that helped guide me out of this mind game if he was just pulling my leg... so to speak. I don't really think that...
My ex just recently popped into a dream I was having the other night...while writing this I got a vibe (empathically) from him saying (it felt like he meant it.) "I never tried to control you"... I'm not sure if I should trust him... I have so many questions and not enough answers. Talking to him isn't going to work... I haven't talked to him in about a year.. and I've hinted around this topic, awhile back but of course he plays dumb...unless he truly isn't involved.
I guess what I'm asking for is the who, when, where, why and how's and I guess I'm also seeking closure. Where do I go from here? So if you could answer/ fill in the blanks I'd be very grateful. There is also a part of me going through do I really want to know... and of course I do otherwise I wouldn't be writing this thing out. I hope the information I have left you is enough.. I left out a lot knowing that if I told you everything I know I'd be writing you a book... so if you have any questions ask.
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